Hay Buhay

Have you ever felt so attracted to one person so much you have no idea what to do with yourself?
This was an experience I had back when I started having crushes. For the first time in my life, I let a friend talk me into going to a disco.

While my friend was away dancing with whoever, a man walked towards me. The music faded as he approached and sat beside me. My heart jumped to my throat each time his arm brushes mine. He was beautiful, dressed in lovely colors and his baritone voice made my knees weak.

As a love song started, he stood up and I silently squealed. I thought he was going to ask me to dance, but no, he walked back to the entrance. My heart broke as I observed him go closer to a tall, slender woman.

Of course, he won’t notice me if he had someone like that. I’m probably just a teenage brat in his eyes. I felt inferior to her, but that also made me willingly swallowed the bitter pill. But he evaded her. As the woman move away, my eyes bulged and I felt relief washing over me. Well, of course, he won’t notice how nervous I was beside him and going gaga over how attractive he was. We had the same taste. My first crush was kissing another man.

There. 😒 

As Filipinos used to say “Hay buhay”

28 thoughts on “Hay Buhay

    1. Thanks Lynyo! This is the second time I got nominated for mystery blogger award. Hahaha πŸ˜€

    1. Hahaha πŸ˜‚ but as embarrassing as they are to remember it still feels good to look back sometimes.

        1. Haha I’m sorry, I did not think I would be breaking someone’s heart. It was meant to make you smile. 😭

  1. It’s amazing how first crushes always turned to be stories worthy of remembrance!
    Thanks for sharing!
    I bought one of your books by the way!

    1. Yes, you said it. I think first crushes are meant to make us reminisce with a smile.

      And thank you so much for your support Lynyo πŸ’ž I hope you’ll enjoy it.

  2. Sorry Jess but it made me laugh πŸ˜€ Don’t kill me now but we’ve all been there I guess and felt exactly the same but now we just laugh on this πŸ™‚ Thank you for sharing

    1. Hahaha πŸ˜„ Then my post is successful because making the readers laugh at my story was what I was aiming for. ^^

  3. Aww.. Natawa ako kase may naalala ako sa sarili ko.. I feel the same.. And it makes me sad din naman.. yung pakiramdam na SYA na ba?
    Pero.. Iba..Ibang Iba sya..
    Nakakaloka at Nakakalungkot.

    This is Hay Buhay!! HEHE!!! πŸ˜€

    1. Sinabi mo pa. Talagang kaloka maranasan. Yung feeling ba na “Give me back all my angst and nervousness!” pero oras naman na naka-move ka na, masarap namang balik-balikan kasi nakakatawa na lang. 😊

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